PeaceDragon09

I remember I got a notification on my phone saying I got a new message on dA but I kept forgetting to check until now. Wow! You're moving! Or well you already did. Where did you move to? Are you dorming on campus or near by in a apartment? I would love to love out of my house and live in a nice apartment all to myself (and a few feathered/furry companions) IF only I had money and time. I hope things are going alright with your new living. Things can be stressing and sketchy the first few weeks or months. You begin to realize a whole new level of responsibilities you didn't know you had to deal with in the first place. I just hope you have the little money to buy groceries or at least some healthy food from restaurants. Remember to ALWAYS take the time to be with yourself and renovate/recuperate/replenish your mental, physical, emotional, and/or spiritual health whether it be doing a quick jog, yoga, walking outside, picking flowers, or watching a few shows.

I hate anxiety. I've noticed I began to get them about a year ago and it really kicked in this year especially with the whole dilemma I was going through. Anxiety for me means I feel like I get shortness of breath or I just feel nervous (you know, like when you get nervous before doing a presentation in front of a class?). My cousin told me two ways to help ease anxiety. The first one is having a shoulder massage. If you have anyone comfortable/close/trustworthy ask them if they can give you a shoulder rub to ease your anxiety. Of course, I don't think I could muster up the courage to ask a friend for a massage because it sounds embarrassing or silly xD.  But the second way to ease anxiety can be done yourself which is lightly gliding your fingernails on your forearm. It's kind of like your doing a slow version of scratching an itch if that makes sense. After a few minutes you start to feel that sense of anxiousness ease away. Also a tip from me to you is to have some nice hot cup of herbal tea. I like herbal fruity teas along with green and chamomile tea. I still have yet to try different teas like earl grey or black tea but that's supposedly to keep you awake lol.

Well I'm glad you have things settled for your classes. The whole ten minutes in between classes was what I had last year in one quarter. It didn't bother me. I felt that it went along quicker just to get your classes done and out of the way quick without waiting an hour in between for your next class. Of course now that I have hour gaps in between classes I use that time to go to the gym. My new school year begins this coming Thursday and I have about a two hour gap which means I can do gym, eat, and do homework. I don't mind it now since I've been getting classes that are an hour apart. I just wish I didn't have to go to school everyday M-F but what can I do? That's how my schedule is. Besides it's not the first time I had to go to school everyday in college.

Thank you for the kind words. I actually have everything settled now. Most of my frustration melted away a few weeks ago in August. I had a second chance of trying to find a math class with Open Enrollment (which is basically an enrollment day for any students who want to find any leftover classes to add). It was such a roller coaster of emotions that day. It was almost 9 am to sign up for a class (which I found a math class that was open) but when I tried to add it out of no where my computer was acting up. I was super frustrated thinking "why could this happen to me at the worst time?!". But strangely the same thing was going on with another cousin of mine who was also adding a class. So I called my school to check what was going on and they said the servers crashed and they're working on getting it back up. So I literally had to wait by my laptop refreshing every few minutes until the servers were working. It took me about 3 hours before something happened. When I refreshed for the Xth time something different happened and after a long loading screen I got my class!! Strangely I was curious if I really did get my class, so I added a random class. When I tried to get that class, the servers weren't working again. So I have no idea how I got my class in that small gap of time. It's like I jumped into a wormhole. But I don't care. I got my class!!

I never found a job because I gave up about a month and a half ago but that's alright. I was going through something rough and I needed as much time to recuperate. I can't get into something where I'm not feeling myself. Things won't work out the same when you feel 100% you. As for the volunteering thing at the animal adoption center, it gave me something to do to work off any boredom and negative emotions I've had. It also gave me the energy to get back to exercising. At the adoption center I enter early morning to clean the dog kennels (I thought the smell of dog poop would be worst but I'm used to it), after approx two hours I go and walk/train the dogs for another two-three hours. When I leave I get home, wash my clothes I wore, eat, rest for an hour, and then exercise. After that I grab a quick snack, shower, and just go on my computer or watch T.V. My whole day goes away just like that. I loved that. But now with school coming up the only days I can go to the adoption center is probably Saturday (and maybe Tuesday since I only have one class in the afternoon).

I really want to pick up writing to write my thoughts out but I never muster up the drive to do it haha. But maybe with time I will. I've also been thinking of going to the counseling center at my school to seek professional help ever since sometime during my Spring quarter (which ended in June). I thought I will do it when the new school year begins. I've been feeling lonely, sad, alone, and angry at times. It's something I really want to do to help ease away the few bits of negativity going on in me. So hopefully I'll be able to make an appointment for sometime next week. Maybe there is when I can get encouraged to write in a journal and rant away. I like writing. I just need that little push to get me started. Knowing me, I'll easily fill up journal after journal with the way I write. I'm very descriptive. It's kind of like story-telling when I write. I wonder where I got that habit from........(looks back to the days when I wrote fan fiction stories).

I really do hope being a vet tech is something I really want to do because I have no other back up plan for what career I want to pursue lol. I mean an I like doing hands-on things and physical labor. I just hope I have the brains to handle math and science courses. I'm good with arts and writing. I hope my left brain will be strong as my right brain (you know how they say if you're better with artsy stuff than with math then you're using your right brain better than the left? I hope I'm strong with both sides). So what are you thinking of pursuing in? I know it's early to ask but it's a really good time to start thinking. But don't worry there are tons of students who still don't know what to do even if they're in their third year of college. I know that sounds stressing/a bad thing but it just shows how much thought we have to put in. At the end of it all, you don't want to end up doing something you really don't want to do. Just start with the simple things such as asking yourself if you want to be a doctor, dentist, teacher, firefighter, etc. I said no to all these so that was a start. Think of what you're good at and what you're horribly bad at. What are your hobbies? What do you like to do? What are your general likes and dislikes? And so on. We're all bound to find something we like and want to do.

I love writing large messages. I feel bad whenever I send text messages to my friend because he has to end up reading them and says "You write a lot". I can never shorten text messages haha.

I'm sure you started school so I hope I can hear from you whenever you have the time. Take it easy. You'll do great!!
By the way my Skype name is my whole name which is desiree.j.cossio. I should have came up with something clever but whatever xD